I smile with the grace of butterfly wings
a gentle flutter
and though the wind offers me a soft caress,
I cannot help but shiver in its cool embrace
baby hairs tickle my nose and forehead
but I do not move them away.
I watch the world spin through the clouds
and so I swing higher and higher
I am awake, yet also asleep.
And even though I normally enjoy the sun’s
sweet buttery kiss
I almost wish it would go away
so the gnawing sickness in my stomach
would feel at home amongst the
overcast sky and
the world would be slow and still
and I would be able to die.